I'm in an agitated mood at the moment. I don't really know why. So, I'm going to publicly announce things that are annoying me. 1) 50 year old women going out for jobs that I am going out for. Lady, you had your time to do this, why are you going out for jobs when it's so tight to get elementary teaching jobs. But of course, they seem more mature and prepared, somehow, so they get the job over me. 2) Classes who really just have no respect for subs what-so-ever in a school district that this rarely happens. I should be happy that I rarely deal with it, but when I do, it really irks me. 3) People who don't know how to drive. Seriously, 30 MPH in a 45MPH zone? I won't make any comments that sound horrible, but I'm sure you can guess which age group this driver was from. 4) Taxes coming out of paychecks... I'm used to the fact that an already small check is going to be smaller... but I hate being excited for a BIG one, and having it then turn out to be NOT BIG. I understand how taxes are, why we pay them and so forth, so don't yell at me about it being important and so forth. I'm just complaining about something that's not going to change. AND THEN, having to pay an arm and a leg... and I think even an eyeball... to pay for health insurance... I pay so much in taxes... why can't they give me help on the freaking health insurance. 5) Feeling hmm... unwanted? no, I dont know if that's the word. This has been something that has been bothering me for a while, but I'm finally posting something about it. I feel as though come people will avoid a (hmm... to try to be more vague)... certain thing with me (and, no, it's not physical contact of some sort)... at all costs. Though, vengeful as it may be, I feel as though part of the situation is getting treated fairly for it now. Now, I could be totally wrongly assuming, as I always do, but it's been bothering me, even though the part that involves me was in the past... 6) Wanting the forbidden. Yeah, that's everyone's annoying thing I guess... you're going to be annoyed whenever you want something that is forbidden from you, whatever it may be. But it's on my list hardcore right now. 7) SOMEONE not getting out of bed to shower when they know I have to shower after them... and yet, I always go yell at them to do so, and they do, and then I have to wait for them to get out. Because we're both picky, and don't like our parents shower... but it just annoys me... especially because I want to stay in bed until I go in the shower, but I ALWAYS have to get out and yell at her to get out of bed. (I don't really yell... though at that time of the morning it kind of feels like it). 8) My hair. I hate my hair. It can never look good. I don't think it ever looks professional. and when I do get it to look acceptable, by the time I go out to my car, and walk through a parking lot (especially when it's windy or rainy) it's not so good. I can't cut it much shorter because I'm trying to hide something... but the longer it is, the more bleh it is. 9) Feeling as though something didn't work as well as we originally thought. And the worry and crap that puts my head through. CRAP. sorry. 10) Being so easily annoyed, and feeling the need to write this entry. Yes, even I'm annoying myself. So I apologize for being annoyed, and sharing it with all who decide to read this. so I shall try to counteract this list with 10 POSITIVE things I can think about right now. 1) Jack. his hugs and his kisses. and asking "can i wanna play a game with you" or calling me mommy and then laughing at himself. DANCE parties. His and my LOVE for Cheerios promising many wonderful simple breakfasts, that even I can prepare! 2) Tim. I'm just so proud of him. And although I miss him, the occasional text and phone call make me smile. and even when I'm stupid when I call him, he doesn't say anything about it. His music. and knowing he'll be home in like 3 weeks for spring break! 3) The classes that make me smile. The schools where a good handful of the students and teachers know me, and treat me like one of them. The hello's and smiles... or "Hi Ms. Sheridan" "how'd you remember my name?" "because you told us it's like the hotel... but spelled different!" 4) Making money, the ability to do so, and almost saving some up. 5) Snow. How beautiful it is and makes things look. And having a snow day  And Jack's snowman family. (though nobody likes the hazards snow brings on the road, I know). 6) Chocolate. Especially dark chocolate. especially M&M's... thanks Tiff. So on and so forth. chocolate is just amazing. 7) My IPod and my car having a CD player so I can listen to my fave escape: Music. Musicals. Back to my Wicked kick... as well as another one that I don't have music for but I'm on a kick!! 8) Silly as it may be, my TV shows! 9) FRIENDS. Even when I have a hard time with them in one way or another, they have all helped me through so much, or just know how to make me laugh, smile, or are available for a good cry fest. LOVE you all... even when I'm not happy with you. I just wish I could be close to you all at the same time, and all the time! 10) Keeping my lenten promise. well, most of it. I'm not hardcore on having a lenten promise, but I made one this year to Read a GOOD Book every night before bed... and I've kept that part of my promise. Hopefully after Easter it will stick as a routine more-so than it's been since I left Millersville. Faith and hope, even in hard times. A desire to want more. And knowing I'm doing something right because I feel Satan more now than I have in a while. Hope that makes this entry a little better. sorry again. | 
